I have been a dedicated Christian since memories began about thirty years ago. I was a Jesus Freak kid, received a Bible degree from Moody Bible Institute, a pastor for six years, and obsessed with Christian apologetics. After a period radical spiritual anxiety and existential crisis, I am no longer a Christian. I am now in the best part of my spiritual life. This video will share everything that happened for me to go from confident Christian to having my faith completely collapse.

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RECOMMENDED RESOURCES:

That All Shall Be Saved by David Bentley Hart: https://amzn.to/3Dyf3KG
How to Change Your Mind by Michael Pollan: https://amzn.to/3q58dJg
Journey of Souls by Michael Newton: https://amzn.to/3q53uay
Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle: https://amzn.to/3pYKuKZ
A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle: https://amzn.to/3Qipcm7
Untethered Soul by Michael Singer: https://amzn.to/3Owuvgo
The Book by Alan Watts: https://amzn.to/3OvvPjA

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00:00 This video was NEVER expected.
00:51 Brief context on my faith.
03:30 The two simultaneous tracks that derailed my faith.
04:00 FIRST: Faith begins to soften with a hypothetical Catholic lady.
06:46 Extreme grace and infinite love.
09:04 Entertaining universal reconciliation.
11:12 SECOND: a new kind of spiritual understanding.
13:06 A psychedelic experience…
14:45 Crisis in Costa Rica.
17:12 The quest for the truth of the universe begins.
19:17 The book that reveals what happens after death.
23:01 The bittersweet faith release.
24:34 The Dark Night of MY Soul.
26:58 Going to the Source for truth.
27:37 Period of passionate stillness.
29:11 Spiritual decision to trust myself.
30:17 But… am I going to Hell?
31:34 THIS removed all fear forever.
33:39 Where I’m at now.
35:11 TWO WAYS to discover the truth of the universe…